“I was bigger when i was small, but the more i grow bigger, the smaller i get”

jengjengjeng!!!…. meet my new hairdo…. harharhar… i like my last better… but mama was like… “what is that on ur head? get it off. i dont want that anywhere near my house.”…. so i was like…” oh now u dont like my hair la?”… whuteva… i went to the barber… told him precisely this ” tepi blakang bagi nipis & kemas. atas biaq panjang”. then he starts cutting my hair.the first 10  minutes was fine… he did what he was told to do. came the next 10. he cuts of the front of my hair. WTF!!! i spent 2 friggin months growin that. but then again. now that my hair looks ugly, mom has got to like it. she usually like what i think is ugly on me n hate what i think looks good on me… (=.=”) life of the last born~~~~

p/s: anything other than the hair stays the same

p/ss: gonna check out everyone else’s blogs after this

p/sss: i know its hideos

Dear Haziq/Jeng,

let see how you’ve been this semester. you have not been a good boy. you play your time, you throw out dimes, you killed your undine. look at what you’ve made yourself into. you are now 185 cm tall and 75 kg of useless, scared little useless junk. what have you contributed to your family and your friends. Nothing! you’ve only gained some new friends and now you’ve lost some. you dont even do anything to make things right. you’re always caught up in discriminating perception of yourself. “i cant do this”, “i cant do that”, “oh no, i cant handle that”, “oh yes, im a nobody!” dont you know that what you perceive yourself makes who you are. if you see yourself as a rotten egg then that’s what youll be. if you’re a nobody than you’ll never be a ’somebody’. Wake up Haziq/ Jeng. you hide behind the reason of guilt. alas, she strive you dive. youll be wasting your time, your money n your life if u dont start changing. Just remember, youre not a nobody, youre always a sombody and youll forever will be.

Dear friends,

before the semester ends. i wish to beg for forgiveness. for i feel that ive done so many wrongs. all those curse that shouldnt have been said. all those hearts that have been scared. i plead for your forgiveness. for not saying hi to you when we met. i plead for forgiveness. for not noticing you when you’re in front of me. i plead for forgiveness. for not being there when you need me. i plead for forgiveness. for not comforting you when you’re down. i plead for forgiveness. the truth is, there’s never a second in my life i regret having you guys as my friend. you are my heart, my nerves and sinew. you guide me to the road not taken. thanks for making me a somebody when i was thinking im a nobody. thanks for letting me step in your life. thanks for acknowledging my existence.

Dear Putri,

im sorry that i’ve been an ass. the truth is, im happy. im happy that youre getting better. i love seeing you getting brighter. i love seeing you smile. i just love seeing you. but its seeing you is what i cant take. im truly sorry that i broken your heart. im truly sorry build you up and tear you down so many times. im truly sorry for the pain that you’ve felt. i’m truly sorry that you have to go through all that. im truly sorry. if i can erase all of those i have done on you with my life, i would. im truly truly sorry. i promise that ill change. i promise to get better. im truly sorry.

Dear kakak,

thanks for being the one i can depend on. for being the one i can trust. for being the one that i can share. for being the one to understands. for being the one to keep my secrets. for being the one who encourages me. for being the one who lightens me up. for being the one to put a smile on my face. thank you for being there when i need you. for opening up when i need you. thank you for the support you gave. and for the stories you share. for the advice you’ve told. thank you for being my perfect sister.

Dear mama n ayah,

im sorry that i’ve disappointed you so many times. that i’ve made you cry. that i’ve troubled your life. that ive annoyed you. that ive been the black sheep of the family. and that ive not turn out the way you wanted. im sorry for not appreciating what you gave me. for ever doubting your judgment. for not listening to your advice. for making you worry. i promise ill try harder to correct my mistakes. i promise ill try harder to be the son that you’ve always wanted.

this semester was the most emotional. for me. and for those around me. im sorry for all those hearts ive broken. for all those who have tears shed for me. for all people who worried about me. ill try harder to be the person you wanted to see in me. thanks for being around me.

Lapit mga kaibigan at makinig kayo
Ako’y may dala-dalang, balita galing sa bayan ko
Nais kong ipamahagi ang mga kwento
Ang mga pangyayaring nagaganap
Sa lupang pinangako

[English Translation:]
(Come closer my friends and everyone listen
I brought news from my homeland
I’ll tell you how we live and what goes on
From my beloved homeland.)

im so learning tagalog… maybe not anytime soon… but maybe after german… or after spanish which is after german…. whatever…

They told him don’t you ever come around here 
Don’t wanna see your face, you better disappear 
The fire’s in their eyes and their words are really clear 
So beat it, just beat it 

You better run, you better do what you can 
Don’t wanna see no blood, don’t be a macho man 
You wanna be tough, better do what you can 
So beat it, but you wanna be bad 

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it 
No one wants to be defeated 
Showin’ how funky and strong is your fight 
It doesn’t matter who’s wrong or right 
Just beat it, beat it 
Just beat it, beat it 
Just beat it, beat it 
Just beat it, beat it 

They’re out to get you, better leave while you can 
Don’t wanna be a boy, you wanna be a man 
You wanna stay alive, better do what you can 
So beat it, just beat it 

You have to show them that you’re really not scared 
You’re playin’ with your life, this ain’t no truth or dare 
They’ll kick you, then they beat you, 
Then they’ll tell you it’s fair 
So beat it, but you wanna be bad 

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it 
No one wants to be defeated 
Showin’ how funky and strong is your fight 
It doesn’t matter who’s wrong or right 

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lovin this song…

lovin the MJ version better than FOB…

enjoy 

L8R

hey… look at my links… ‘ve new link (:+:myDEVIANTART:+:) its actually a link to my deviant art account…i took my friend’s advice (ty tatie) to appreciate what i have… well i have a lil bit of skills…. so i wanna expand it even if im not in AD… so, ive made DA account whr i can share my arts… hoping to get more experience in arts…. what dya say?… wise move?….

anyway… cant do this with no support… im usually the kind that active at the beginning… half way to the third quarter, id be lacking off.. thats y i need u support…

support me puhleeze…

L8R

ive peeked into a few of my buds playlists… God!! aint that different!!!…majority of my songs are not in their playlist n so little of theirs are in mine… its amazing how 9.85GB of MP3s that ive colllected still have some songs i left…
So, i conclude that my wierd taste in music is loco…. diff… whateveer u call it… lemme list down some songs that is not in majority of playlist among my buds:

1. Sean Paul- the Dutty Rock and the Trinity album (seriously… i think im the only one listening to him)
2. Era- Ameno (ever heard of it?… tot so)
3. KimKay- Lilali 
4. Kumbia Kings – La cucaracha (its a classic)
5. the japanese song in Tokyo drift..(the saad saad 1…)
6. Asereje (the ketchup song.. still remember?)
7. bare necessities & i wanna be like u – the jungle books
8. beethoven moonlight sonata
9. Amr Diab – Nur El Ain
10. Yu Chae Yong – Emotion
11. Tech n9ne – riot maker
12. Card captor sakura opening theme by Anza
13. Nelly Furtado Folklore album
14. African children’s choir – Ndyahimbisa
15. Ghostbuster soundtrack
16. My heart (instrumental… my sleeping music… always work)
17. The rasmus- Hide from the sun album
18. Eve – Tambourine (not so rare… but its still wierd)
19. Haruka Kanata – Asia Kung Fu Generation
20. London Symphony Orchestra (seriously… i do have some)
21. sakasama no chou – Snow
22. Kusha las payas – las ketchup
23. track 14 of Maksim’s second album
24. Oo Yeon – Baby V.O.X
25. wo bu xiang xian da – S.H.E (title unconformed… but thats what they say during the chorus)
26. Connie Talbot album (she’s only 6 Years old)
27. Killing me softly- the fugees (common actually)
28. most of tetris remixes
29. SPongebob Squarepants OST
30. Bily Talent – this is how it goes
31. Blue (da be dee) – eifel69
32. some thailand songs (including oh oh thap)
33. Aque – Aquarium album
34. Digimon opening n closing themes (most of it)
35. Karim Daud – perasaan (a must listen to)
36. some of Shaggy songs
37. Tell laura i love her – Ray peterson
38. raggaeton
39. Daddy yankee
40. Vengaboys- boom boom boom & we like to party
41. Wada Kouji – the biggest dreamer (digimon theme song act… but this is my fav)
42. phlowtron- marilah bergoyang
43. calcutta taxi taxi taxi – Dr. Bombay